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Monday, July 26, 2010

Rojak


为这个标题,我想了很久,想了很多……就因为太多标题可用了,有关系的;没关系的,就因为想了太多,心情太杂,想表达的太乱,犹如rojak般,够贴切。

有人和我说,别在fb谢太多,这样会令她很伤心,好像她把我变得不是人似的。我停笔了一段时间,但有时心情太灰暗了,决定在此将一切心情写出来,希望会有些帮助。对不起,请谅解我的苦衷。

最近的我,“病倒”了。犯了许多错误、对不起许多人、将一切的缺点都尽数展出。

最近的我,睡眠少了、食量小了、话题少了、幽默没了、反应慢了、干劲没了、思维多了……

最近,听了许多名言:把悲愤化为力量、人要往前看,别活在过去、要多爱自己、人得不到的,总觉得是最好的、人世间会遇上许多困难与挫折,这些都是考验,克服了,春天就来了、爱一个人,不一定要拥有她,而是要让她幸福,不然你没资格说爱、拿得起就要放得下、想得到一些东西,就得靠自己,别依赖其他人与事物、要感谢伤害你的人、时间会证明一切、感情不是数学,付出100不一定得回100、失去一样东西,要看看你的四周,珍惜你还拥有的一切、还有许多许多……说话都更有哲学感了。

感谢我身边的人,我的家人、朋友,你们都想尽办法开解我,由其是一位很重要的朋友,花了许多心思和时间在我身上。上面的名言,都是从这些人听来的。可是,我都辜负了他们。那些名言,都是一支支的强心针,我每天都要利用它们解除自己的忧郁。可是有效时间总是太短,我很容易又悲观起来……那位朋友,你的心及白费了,真的非常抱歉,大家,对不起……

每天起来,就要面对一场战争。首先,要欺骗自己,“我没事的,我现在很快乐”,偶尔还要回想与利用一些名言。骗过了自己,才能欺骗接下来一天要面对的人。从学姐那学了一招,早上要对着镜子练习笑,若过不了自己那关,怎么能见人?

在外面,我得学会控制心情,由其是看见某些事物,如Wira汽车,如金河广场,如戏院,如钢琴……这些都是时常要接触的东西,得赶快适应。^^

慢慢的,我领悟到许多东西。我不能让自己堕落下去了。成了三个星期的行尸走肉,够了!往常的吴昊天,你得回来了!在那忧郁又能怎样?你手上还有很多事情等着你去做!放不下?去争取!你现在这个样子,能争取什么?搞好你的企业,建立好的未来,到时你才有资格说你要!

再困难,再辛苦,我都得振作。在未来,什么都可能会发生。不是我不要潇洒放弃,而是我并不轻易接受。现在,我手上的风筝飞走了。假如有一天我有机会牵回我的风筝,我是不会轻易放手的。

Thursday, July 23, 2009

韩国之旅

17 Again?! (7月14日)

与《狂热的歌者》一起,我展开了第三次的国外旅途。这次的目的地是韩国的济州岛和首尔。我们乘搭11.45pm的那班飞机。大型的航空公司就是不同。飞机上准备了三餐,还能听音乐与看电影。我睡到凌晨,醒来发现在播着新电影:17 Again。于是,我的睡眠就这样赔上了……结束后,我从电影得到许多不同的启发。令我感触最深的两句话,其一是一位即将离婚的太太对她朋友说:“我很关心我丈夫,我很爱他。但是,这些都不够。”她丈夫知道后,才发现是他没做好他的问题。他看不见她为他做的一切,却埋怨她所没办到的。另一句是,“年轻人总是把失去和挫折看成世界末日,你怎知道那不是另一个开始?”许多电影里的道理在我脑袋里打转。我一时开心,一时后悔,一时矛盾……结果只睡了半个小时,机舱就开灯,上早餐了,我后悔不已… =p

抵达(7月15日)
自昨日在KLIA至抵达韩国,我们全员每一刻都带着口罩,拍了许多蒙面超人的照片。在机场门口才将它脱下。在韩国,真的是每样事都和大马不同。机场工作人员都是韩国人,街上的情景好像在韩剧才能看见,他们的保安人员,像木头一样站在岗位上。

机场






首尔的景色






保安人员。我注意他们很久了,隔了30分钟,最多只是头部转了一下。哪像某国的保安人员,70%时间都在小屋里抽烟、吃饭、说笑……



我们在午饭后乘另一班机到济州岛去。还参观了《龙头岩》。






虽说那里现在是夏季,温度却和大马早上10点一样。温暖的阳光加上凉快的冷风……晚上,我上网了,但是后悔了。为何我一直执迷不悟,去看人家的update.. =p笨蛋,呵呵……

隔离(7月16日)

和我们一起参加这次活动的UCSI Choir其中一人发烧,和另一位印尼合唱团也是发烧的团员一起被送进医院检查。我们得在旅店被隔离一天,一面等待他们的检查报告。有关人员为我们量了两次温度,说是超过37.4度的都得进医院。我量了温度后,他说我的温度是最低的。我竟然才35.9度!难道我真的像老师说的,是冷血动物吗?哈哈~最好笑的是,当老师问我们,这里还有谁的温度最不正常?他们都指向我……
希望明天一切会恢复正常啦……

度假?!(7月17日)

最新消息,那位团员的检验报告结果是positive,得在首尔检查多一次……我们也都得隔离一个礼拜了。在旅店“度假”、吃饭得从后门进、不能够上网…只好躲在房里看戏,玩游戏,睡觉等等。真不知道这七天要怎么过。幸好带来的电脑派上用场了!^^
为了不要让我们白白度过时间,委员们还安排了一些互动的游戏。怎知在晚餐时间,报告竟出来了,他们验了三次,第一次本来是positive,第二和第三次却显示出negative的结果,也就是他没事了!
晚上,UCSI Choir特地为迎接他而练了一首歌,当他回到时,一房间的人为他唱着歌,访问他,关心他,与他拥抱……好温馨呢,还我都想生病了 =p
不知若同样事情发生在我身上,会有人这样对我吗?^^

韩国隔离录

第一天(7月18日)
本来该放《韩国之旅真正第一天》。一早的消息却改变了一切。有三个人被验到确实中了H1N1,全部人不得踏出房间一步,除了吃饭。还说若没有意外的话,我们至少要隔离至24号才能回国。

第二天(7月19日)
原本今天应该上飞机到首尔去玩的,然而我们的一天就在吃饭、看戏和睡觉中度过。这种日子,还有五天要过吧?向他们说的,的确很“享受”,躲在这里,什么都不用做。看来接下来的活动都没什么分别吧?我大可在这里放第三天:吃饭、看戏和睡觉。第四天:和第三天一样。第五至第七天:都和第三天一样。简单又贴切,对不?^^

第三天(7月20日)
吃饭、看戏和睡觉。我左耳不再痒了,电话不能用,再也看不见11.11了;我想念我的家人、我的朋友、我的同学、我的伴奏;我想回家……

第四天(7月21日)
昨晚我的温度突然上到37度,还好今天恢复了正常。我一直在想,若我真的得了H1N1又会怎样呢?其实不怎么恐怖啊,和普通感冒一样,几天就可以痊愈了。只不过对一些高血压的病患会导致死亡,所以才必须预防被感染。今天我们都收集护照号码要订机票了。若明早量体温没什么异状的话,三天后便可以回了吧?

第五天(7月份22日)
今天所有被隔离的朋友都证实没患上H1N1,都被放出来了。相反地,我今天一早就发现我喉咙痛,凌晨醒来拼命灌水。而且我一整天都混混沌沌,非常想睡觉。幸好我的温度都很低,个别是36.3度和36.6度。午餐后,睡了一觉就不痛了。为了庆祝所有人都没事,旅店还特别为我们安排一餐露天BBQ。



晚上,我们为所有工作人员和来宾演唱我们所准备好的歌。

第六天(7月23日)
今天一早,就被吵醒说,今天要回去了!于是便带着睡意地拾好行旅去集合。


我从昨晚便打呃至今天傍晚,连胃酸都呃出来了……花了一天,终于回到家了,终于都过去了……

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

献丑了!


嗯……我知道我想说些什么,但坐在电脑面前的我,却不知该写些什么。

电脑进厂了,说是要换motherboard,所幸还是免费的,不然要花上至少五、六百块…

面前的,是前一天,和我面对着一样问题的电脑,不能够上网。如今我却用着它写blog…

什么嘛,应该进厂才能修好的!还问了hp厂家说令一架一样问题的,是否也免费修理?

我就是这样,从以前到现在,没有一件事使我自己办妥的;成功的例子,背后总是有人在帮忙,或是刚好事情进行得太顺利。

回想一下,我根本就是个幸运儿嘛!上天给了我很好的命运,就不需要给予我好的办事能力。

我也想帮人,但有那次帮得上忙呢?不曰帮越忙我就偷笑了!


但是,我不能这样下去,这世上有太多太多东西,使我需要学的。不能再依赖命运了。要自己做好自己的事,要真正帮到别人…在我有把握之前,我不能再说:“让我帮你吧”,而是“献丑

Monday, May 4, 2009

I miss that warmness...


Like I say, I miss that warmness... Man, the weather's so hot and why do I miss it?!? It's not the right time!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Dots in the white.


Look at this picture, what did you see?

A black dot? Yeah, there is. But did you see anything else? How about the white background?


I used to be a very sensitive person. The worse thing is, I always think negatively. When I saw someone doing something, I might think about the reason he/she did that in a negative way, where that person might just did that without so much reason. You get what I mean? Sorry that my english is too weak, you might not be able to understand what I mean.. Guess I'll just use an example. Somewhere when I was in secondary school, one of my close friend who's not in the same class with me, said something sarcastic once he knew that I got lousy results in exam. It was just an "Wah! Your results' so good!" Then he behaved as normal after that. I thought he got good results and laughed at me for mine. Since that day, I watched at his every action and assumed that he has changed and like to make fun of me. I thought he changed and starting to avoid him. Finally, we became like strangers, those who won't even smile when we meet each other. Few years after that, one of his classmate passed me his school report card. He thought our friendship were as cose as before and asked me to pass this to him. Anyway, I agreed to do so. When I was at home, I became a "ke poh chi" and had a glance on his report card. Surprisingly, his results were not well in that few years, including that time when he laughed me. Then I realised that it was just a joke, where we always do that to each other when we were very close. Then I started to recall things that he did. What I thought negatively were all his jokes, and I didn't realise he did many things to help me and care for me by that time. I just saw his dot out of the white background..

Since that time, I've changed my thoughts. Yes, I'm still being very sensitive. But however, when I saw something now, I might think negatively first, then I'd remind myself to think it at another point of view, let's say " Or...maybe it's just because of another reason?"

Everyone out there, please do recall and check youself whether is it you are sensitive? Someone who's sensitive will never know bout him/herself till something happened. Yes, we can be sensitive, but try don't just think negatively, think from various point of views. If not, you might be suffering and exhausted. You would complain for everything and always felt hopeless, or think that everything are going not well.. You might lost your friends, even best friends, although it won't last forever. And you might make people lost a good friend like you, isn't it sorrowful?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

11:11


This started to happen long time ago. I'll see 11:11 shown either in my digital clock or mobile phone. It happens at least twice in a month. Does this mean anything? Anyway, I'm taking it as my lucky number ^^

Friday, January 2, 2009

外?


Why 2009 is not better than 2008?
Why do these happen for my forth semester?
Why stupid things like to stay around me?
Why did he complain about me although treating me so good?
Why does Ms Tan leave?
Why should we face the pig?
Why was I sick for 2 weeks last semester?
Why 2.99?
Why must I endure idiots talking nonsense?
Why should I practice?
Why can't I say what I want to say?
Why must I act?
Why can't guys cry out like girls do?
Why am I asking all these...